It's out of my hands

My emotions have gone haywire. For whatever reason, having my family here has just made me hyper sensitive to both sad or sweet, touching things. Today I was driving to the bank when I saw a grandfather crossing the street with his granddaughter (who looked about 10). Too old to want her hand held, but he held onto her jacket, just the slightest bit, anyway. I could tell he wanted to keep her safe even though she may not have needed him to in that way anymore. It made me cry. That's when I realized, I've lost the battle. I can no longer predict or control the tears. Thankfully, that time I was alone and in my car. Versus yesterday, when I was with my mom and in the crowded Cracker/Cookie aisle at Cub.

 

10 comments:

Anndi said...

Welcome to the club.

1:35 PM
Melissa said...

It's tough when it seems like everyone else has exactly what we want, but we just can't seem to get it...especially when it comes to children. Things are pretty raw right now, but I bet that your emotions will settle down really soon, and you'll wonder what got into you. :o)
It sucks right now, but I really hope it gets better soon.

2:27 PM
HeatherPride said...

Listen, if you start feeling too out of control, promise to call your doctor, ok? It could be hormonal. This sounds so much like me when I was dealing w/ post-partum. I knew I was in trouble when I couldn't make it through the grocery store without sobbing, or drive on the highway without crying. And driving through tears is dangerous. Take care of yourself, ok?

3:10 PM
Casey said...

I've been like that before and I still get like that sometimes. I'm glad you have family around to let it out. When I first read that you were hypersensitive to sweet things, I thought you were coming down with diabetes or something. Yes, I'm an idiot. I hope things cheer up soon...

4:34 PM
DeeMarie said...

Oh honey. I just want to hug you while you cry your eyes out. I'm so sorry you're dealing with all of this.
You're in my thoughts, dear.

5:07 PM
Mommy2Twinkies-Deb said...

I really just want to hug you! It feels so bad when your emotions are out of control... but it does sound hormonal. I'm a little crazed on some new medicine right now... so I get it. Things feel out of whack. Hang in there, Sweetie.

7:16 PM
Sprite's Keeper said...

Sweetie, I am SO sending you a virtual hug right now! That moment would have had me in tears too because of the beauty of it. It's all right to let it get to you. Just cry it out and breathe a little deeper. It also helps to talk to someone. Big hugs!

9:32 PM
steenky bee said...

Sister, I know you don't want to hear this, but I do know how you feel. Not exactly, but I went through this same thing. Please, please promise me that you'll go talk with someone. The fertility thing is a spiral and can take you down fast. Hugs to you!!

11:53 AM
Cat said...

I started bawling at the sunset not long ago. Sometimes it just doesn't make sense.

3:21 PM
Steph at Problem Solvin' Mom said...

I think that scene would have made me cry too...Wish there were something I could do to help, dear, hang in there! I imagine having your family around is both a blessing and a trigger for your emotions - if there is anyone who can crack me up, bring me to tears or set me off with a look or a head tilt, it's my family.

{{hugs}}
Steph

9:43 PM